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Good Morning Peeps…
I turned on the local fm radio station this morning… they have a
program on called grassroots gold… they are playing a series of George Jones
songs… it’s older country and western music… it’s stirring memories of David
big time… funny thing is he liked 1950’s rock n roll… lol…. Suppose it’s the stories in the songs…
David was a story teller… I used to get frustrated with him because he would
tell some of his stories over and over… now I am so very glad that he did
because they are embedded in my memory… I can almost see the people and
places in the stories… hear his voice as he was telling them and see his eyes
sparkling and his smile… eyes with flecks of gray… green… gold… brown… sparkling
with happiness as he shared a meal and wove a web of stories… how can a person
be happy and sad at the same time… I don’t know… but I am… smiling with tears
running down my face…
I took the air conditioners out of the windows during the cold snap
that just came through… one of them was in David’s gun room… I lingered a
while in there… looking about… looked in a couple of tool/tackle boxes… he
fishing reels were in there all taken care of and in protective bags… reloading
press set up on the table ready go… waiting in its cover… it’s like the whole
room is waiting for his presence and deliberate hands…
I used to love to watch him polish his boots… his movement with his
hands was so deliberate… steady… firm… solid… seems impossible that he could
be snatched out of that body so suddenly… how is that even possible… I am
like a skitterbit… hands zipping about… fast fast fast… change directions…
flit flit flit… mind is the same way… zip zip zip… attention jumping from one
thing to another… he was just the opposite… we were counter balances to each
other…
It’s not the same but I still carry him with me… always will… that
was part of what the ink on my arm was about… or rather is about… it is our
story and a memorial as well… it is unfinished… just as our lives together were unfinished… still
are…
Yesterday I went into town to take care of licensing my jeep and to
get some fowl feed… while I was at the farm store I looked at some bogs boots…
I’ve been wanting a pair for years but could not wear them… they would not
fit around my legs… yesterday I thought hmmmm…. I’m going to try it… OMG! I
can wear them… the boot shaft actually went around my leg … over my jeans no
less… I couldn’t believe it… I took them off… put them back on again… took
them off… put them back on again… walked a bit in them… I really could get
them on… and they didn’t hurt…
I heard David in my head .... saying go ahead and get them… he used
to get frustrated with me… because I would see something … a coat or whatever…
and really like it… then put it back on the shelf after I’d thought of
somewhere else the funds could go… seems there is always somewhere else the
funds can go… especially out on a farm/ranch… well yesterday I listened to
him… I brought the boots home… they will be nice to work in this fall and
winter… keep the wet… grass seeds… straw… dirt… weeds… sticks… etc out of my
socks… and from sticking my legs and feet… I am so fed up with that… argh… get
some work done on that fence without having to tolerate massive amounts of
grass seeds sticking in my socks and feet…
74 pounds down… and still going… I did oxycise 3 times this week…
will be 4 times as of today… haven’t done it yet but am after I get done
writing…
I am wondering now if I can wear some of the dress boots I have in my
closet… I had given up on ever wearing them again… actually gave some of them
away… it’s not just fat loss… my legs are not swelling as much since I am not
eating refined sugars and gluten… thinking that I just may try some of them
on later today… got work to do before messing about with them…
Tomorrow there are supposed to be some muscovey ducks coming… they
are gray and white ones… I am looking forward to seeing them…
Sammy is doing better… still need to treat his eyes… but they are
looking better… he knows his name too… hehehe…. Cute little bugger… there is
just something about baby goats…
I have not had the nerve to look at my tomato plants yet… squash looks
ok though… so I am thinking the tomatoes probably are too… morning glory
vines are still ok… took the blooms out though… hope there are more coming…
love morning glories… the potted mums are still blooming… as are the asters…
Gonna grab another cup of coffee and get moving… the critters all
need fed…
Mary E. Robbins
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