Friday, January 01, 2010
2009 is dead and gone...2010 bring it on!
2009 has come and gone. It was an eventful year overall. It was an eventful year in my life to be sure. I started 2009 off with a bang. Grand intentions and all that.
Then life got in the way. No excuses, just what happened. Does that mean that 2009 was a year of failure? No it does not. Had I learned nothing through the experience; then yes it would have been a massive failure. (No I am not going to delve into all the "events" of the year)
However I did not quit, and I did learn.
I am walking, without knee surgery. That in itself is a major victory. A story of determination. Frankly; I’m kinda amazed that I am walking. Even able to workout again.
I didn’t do so great on the weight loss front. I had lost 26 lbs. I crashed and gained 16 of that back for a total weight loss for the year of 10 pounds. Not overly thrilled with that, but it is better than a weight gain. So it’s go on from here. 140 pounds to lose to meet my goal weight.
On the positive side, many of the issues that triggered the compulsive eating that packed the 16 pounds back on me have been recognized. I would love to say they have been dealt with and will no longer be issues in my life. I can say there is progress. To say I will never have to deal with the disruptive issues would be a fallacy, a false fantasy that would set me up for failure and pain.
What I can say is that I am healthier, stronger, have developed additional coping skills, and am more prepared to deal with life’s challenges than I was last year at this time.
Looking back over the past 2 years, I can see that I have come soooooo far. There are still ups and downs in my life, the emotional rollercoaster bit ya know. However so much has been ferreted out and confronted. I would say dealt with, disposed of… but then I am likely to find more emotional land mines buried in the fat hanging on my body.
There is a new calm, a new determination to go forward no matter the cost. A new confidence that whatever comes up; I can deal with it. One way or the other. One step at a time. Doesn’t have to be perfect. Can be extremely messy, it doesn’t matter. One day one step at a time… neat, messy, disaster area…no matter… one day one step at a time….
This is a major change for me. No more of the “it’s gotta be perfect” or I’m not doing it at all bit. Methinks this is going to be a grand year.
Life is a journey, enjoy the trip.
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