Beginning of 2008: Attitude of Gratitude

Today started out with a lot of back pain and a good attitude. The back pain has receded and the attitude has fallen into the toilet. I called mom to wish her a happy new year and was dipped in a toxic vat of negativity, bitching, blame, more bitching and complaining. Truthfully at this point I feel like crawling under my desk and dissolving into tears. David thinks she does this on purpose. Frankly I have no idea.

Ok what can I do about her attitude? Absolutely nothing; the only person that can do anything about her attitude is her. However, I can do something about how I allow it to effect me. I may not be able to do anything about how the wind blows, but I can do something about the set of my sails. So, hmmm… “Isn’t that interesting” She chooses dissatisfaction, emotional chaos, pain, and misery… That is her choice.

It doesn’t have to be my choice. I choose… yes I consciously choose… Peace of mind, tranquility of spirit, wellness, physical-mental-spiritual-financial health, and wealth. I choose a life full of God’s wealth, flowing in avalanches of abundance.

I choose to live my life with an attitude of gratitude.
Thank you for my life.
Thank you for today.
Thank you for the choice.
Thank you for health.
Thank you for abundance.
Thank you for vision.

This past month I’ve been taking stock of the past year. Working on wrapping up projects, paperwork and such. No I didn’t get as much done as I would have liked to; however I did make progress.

The end of the year is a time of contemplation, giving thanks, and planning for me. 2007 has been another year of recovery and healing. I am stronger now, physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. No that’s not a brag. It’s a statement of thanks.

I was very ill for a very long time, it’s good to be healing and getting stronger. Really good…

Life is a journey... how you travel is your choice...
Mary E. Robbins & the Hairballs