November 19 2014

Good Morning Peeps... look at that kitten's face... oh yeah...

31 degrees F supposed to warm up to 40 F... yesterday there were winds... this morning thankfully there are not... want to get the critters all taken care of before any wind picks up...

Had a rough few days ... thought I might lose Diesel... he is doing better and I am thinking will have a good recovery... he had a stroke on one of of the bitterly cold days... fortunately in comparison to what it could have been it was relatively mild... he is cocking his head a to the side a bit and his coordination is off but he is eating good... and able to walk and move quickly around... albeit a bit clumsy... looking for lots of hugs... yes he is getting them...

as of now he has been outside for is morning business... had his breakfast and is snoring...

I seems to be the transition from the warm house to the cold outside that triggered the stroke... the rapid constriction of blood vessels... just as it does in humans...

I tried to stay calm when I realized what had happened... failed rather miserably... but tried... took some rescue remedy to help even out... gave Diesel some too... along with vit C... echinacea... and aloe vera.... to help his body heal itself...

when I get upset it upsets Diesel (cane corso)... so trying to not do that... want to give him a calm safe environment to heal in... hes I know he is canine... but he is also my family... and my friend...

One of my sisters-in-law and I visited on the phone yesterday... it was good... almost made it through the conversation without bursting into tears... aw well... almost... David was her big brother... and my husband/best friend... he was a good man and left a big footprint... and you know... when we all got together... he was supposed to be there... he was always so happy when we all got together... getting together was not an easy task... David was out on the railroad most of the time... but when we managed it... he treasured it... he was so looking forward to spending time with folks when he retired... then... poof... he is gone from this life...

poof ... such a silly word...

Diesel is asking to go outside... or rather insisting... and my work list for the day is waiting... critters to be taken care of... so it is on with the day... poof or no poof...

may you walk in peace...

gratitudes: the time we had together... diesel is recovering... visit with Pam...

later taters...

Mary E. Robbins
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and the day is...

Hello Peeps…

We were supposed to have rain and snow last night… did not happen… suits me… the ground is pretty saturated as it is. Sara (bull mastiff) and Diesel woke me up really early… Sara was vomiting… hopefully she will be ok… it seems she swallowed some wood pieces from a piece of log she was chewing on… yes I checked the vomit to see what was in it… as long as she does not have a bowel blockage or perforation she should be ok. Prayers appreciated…

Hung out with them for several hours…with Sara and I piled on the couch and Diesel (cane corso) trying to get on the couch with us… and finally giving up and lying on the rug on the floor beside the couch…

Fixed breakfast… sausage, potato, egg, coffee… then lunch… cold roast beef, raw green pepper, coffee, 2 dates… the sun is shining and the sky is amazing… bright blue with startling white clouds… and the wind is blowing… the wind has a cold bite to it…

I seem to have a piece of tumbleweed wedged in the thumb of my left hand… far enough down into the tissue that I can not get at it… argh… looks like it is going to have to fester out… nasty little bit of ouch…

I like to give people the benefit of the doubt when I receive friend requests… but seriously… scammers… just friggen forget it… so not happening… gotta love that block button… yup… “all I want is your heart” seriously… the next one that lays that on me I am tempted to get a bloody heart from the market and send it to him… hey I am a ranch woman that has butchered when necessary… and have little tolerance for …. Well I will let you fill in that word…

No I did not send the waste of space a bloody heart… I just kicked him to the curb… with that trusty block button… really disgusts me though… they see widow on that relationship status… and seem to think it means come take advantage of me emotionally and financially… as I am prey… guess what… I am not prey… I am that I am… and prey does not come into it… I will leave that at that…

Trying to re-adjust to eating more carbs… to find a healthy balance… it is certainly a learning experience. Watched a few episodes of “Bad Ink” this morning while I was curled up with Sara… they do beautiful ink work at that shop… wow… some of the tats they were covering… geez…

Speaking of ink… the outlines on my arm are healing pretty well… gonna have to call my tat artist and have him finish it up pretty soon… think I may give it a bit more time though… eh… I’ll call him and see what he thinks… as he is the expert…

Does not seem possible that it is already Thursday… but it is… for getting up so early I certainly have a slow start to the day… need to pick up some chicken feed but frankly do not want to drive in the wind if I do not have too… change that… do not want to drive in the wind…ugh… well at least it is not snowing…

I am so looking forward to the first crocus of the season… need to send for my mulberry trees if I am going to plant them… not sure where to put them… wondering just how fast they grow…

Pete and Blue (cockatiels) are celebrating the day… trilling a tune… the way they did with David… I can almost see him standing in front of their cage when they do that… he would stand there and talk to them in the mornings… and they would chatter and trill back to him…

I miss him and I always will… well for as long as I am in this life I will miss his physical presence… I appreciate the memories… the strength of our friendship and love… the truth of it… was a wonderful gift in this life… and frankly it really shows the falseness of the scammers whining manipulative claims… yes I know that sounds negative… but in actuality it is not… it is a positive… my friend… my mate…my husband… is still with me even though he has crossed over… his physical time in this realm at an end…

I shattered when his body died… scattering into a millennia of shards… I am recomposing… the same yet very different… just as welds are stronger… I seem to be coming back together stronger… the patterns of the shards reassembling the same yet different in their intricacy…

A recap of the season of Hannibal is playing … looping through the website’s video… Mow Mow Tat is asleep on one of her kitty shelves… there is a low fire in the woodstove… birds are at the feeder… and the day is….

Mary E. Robbins
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Yeah… I am moving slow

Yeah… I am moving slow… stayed up too late watching movies last night. It is sunny with a wind today… that wind is coming off ice… she has a bite to her. That or I am just tired today… probably both…

Have a movie on… bed sheets in the washer… laundry piled on the couch waiting to be folded… dishes in the sink waiting to be washed… shelving unit fell off the wall in the bathroom yesterday while I was out visiting a friend. Glad I was not in the tub when it fell… wood shelf landed in the tub… busted glass all over the floor… shelving unit is ok… gonna remount it later. Busted stuff cleaned up off the floor and in the trash. Glass on cement doesn’t fare to well…

Oxycise and Tai-cheng are on the docket for today… have not done them yet… perhaps that is why I am dragging so much… later today want to rake in the yard some more…so here is hoping the wind dies down some more… gonna check and see if the girls (hens) have any cackleberries (eggs) for me later…

movie just ended... I can hear the birds singing outside... sounds so peaceful...

Mary E. Robbins
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