Where there was grief... peace...

I am back inside… the critters were all glad to see me… including the wild birds… since their feeder was empty… lol… I filled it and by the time I stepped away they were flying in for breakfast… The pair of Muscovy’s were sitting on top of the straw stack… watching as I filled buckets and the feed cart for the dogs… as well as the cat trays… I know a couple of feathered waddling friends that are eating cat food… aw well… the Muscovy hen decided to greet the sun from the top of the feed storage building… I enjoyed watching her fly from the top of the straw stack to the tip top of the building and glide in… watered and fed the chickens and the quackers… and listened to their chatter for a bit…

The Kennel runs now all have feed and fresh water… here is hoping that the weather folks are right and today warms up to 45 or better… that would be grand… be grand if it did it tomorrow as well… make it much easier to clear the ice out of all the buckets and tubs.

Warming up with some strong hot coffee letting the cold seep out of my skin… I do believe my face had a bit of ice… from my breath freezing… the sun is up… I watched it barely light the eastern horizion… then slip up to light the day…

Set a small heater in the bathroom to heat up the old claw foot tub that is in there… love that tub… gonna put some Epsom salts…zeolite… lavender… and eucalyptus oil … along with some very warm water and take a bit of a soak this morning… nothing like lavender and eucalyptus in hot steam… hmmmmm… thinking I’d better set an alarm or I’ll be sleeping in that water…

Need a hair cut too… hmmmm… perhaps before getting in the tub… perhaps not… could go a bit longer…

Sunlight is streaming in through the kitchen window… hasn’t reached the cockatiels cage yet though… they are trying to nap… yes they were up with me at 4 a.m. this morning and chattering along with the tv streaming from the internet last night … who knows how late as I was crashed out sleeping in the chair…

I thought of my husband as I was out and about… stomping through the snow drifts… across the tops of some… stepping along wearing stockyard boots he insisted I get… with the headlamp turned on as it rode along on the front of my cap and hat under the edge of my sweatshirt… headlamp he had surprised me with… sweatshirts we had bought together… wearing some of the warmest gloves/mittens ever … again that he had surprised me with… as I came in and started pealing of layers… first the boots… to see heavy socks that were his… then the vest he wore… and I thought… he is still taking care of me from the other side… my beloved was needed elsewhere… yet he is still with me… and I with him… today I thought these thoughts… and there was peace rather than grief… yes I still miss his physical presence… miss seeing the sparkle of his hazel eyes… shifting from green to brown… to gold… colors all flecked together shining with love… but today… there was peace…

Yes writing of this brings tears… but there is still peace…

Mary E. Robbins
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Glad to be Home

I am home home home... the Pominators... Mastiffs... and Cat Trio... have all been run outside to do their business and back in... there were still embers in the wood stove when I got home... stuck some more wood in there and got it going... thankful for the little elec heater that took up the slack...

Took it pretty slow coming home... dark and icy... makes for a cautious Mary.... got home with no incidents... other than meeting a semi in an icy curve... ick...

Dinner is a done deal... I was a hungry hound and nuked some sausage/onion/potato/veggie stew for dinner... having some coffee and a 1/2 cup of peanut butter ice cream for dessert...

Making some beef minestrone for the luncheon tomorrow... have that started on the stove.

Filled up the fuel tanks on my truck... yeouch that was a bite in the pocket to be sure. Gotta get the jeep into the shop and see what is up with that check engine light so I can drive her... she gets better mileage... yes my jeep is a she... she is my silver bullet...

Looked out the kitchen window in the subzero cold of this morning and had a treat... a visual treat that is... there were sparrows... magpies... starlings... and blue jays all at the bird feeder... I love watching them... I stood there a bit while I was washing dishes and just enjoyed them...

I am sooooo glad my truck started this morning... it was one of those be thankful for what has gone before moments... if the check engine light had not kicked on I would have not known my battery needed to be replaced and there was no way that old battery would have started my truck this morning...

Even with the emotional roller-coaster of the early morning... over all today has been a good day... made it too and from town with no accidents... have a warm place to sleep... and food to eat...

May you walk in peace...

Mary E. Robbins
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I smell coffee...

MMMMM…. I smell coffee! It’s a cinnamon toast and coffee kinda morning.  Busy day ahead…

Got part of my goals from yesterday done… washed up my egg buckets… oh yeah… the girls gave me 6 eggs yesterday… I did get the laundry folded and put away… the rest of the goals got left on the back burner simmering for another day…

meeting with grief counselor went well… we actually chatted for a couple hours… then on the way out to her car I picked up Barron …

I check him daily to see if the flies have gone after him again… this little dog has no sores… feces mess of any kind on him… yet they go after him… yesterday the little buggers had laid about a teaspoon of eggs on him… glad I have his coat cut shorter… I sprayed best yet cedar spray on him and cleaned them off him with a flea comb… takes a comb with that fine of teeth to get the little buggers off… the best yet spray kills the fly eggs. I am so thankful to have found that stuff… cidercide.com makes it.  An added plus is that it does not poison me or the dogs.

No there are no fleas… just in case you are wondering… killed those things off with their products years ago…

I checked every dog… no one else had fly eggs on them…  The air has turned to autumn… and the flies seem almost desperate to get their last bit in. Ugh… of course there are cattle around… walking fly motels… so there are flies around.  The think is they are not thick … and there is usually some wind which keeps them at bay as well… Barron must be putting off some kind of scent… that those things are attracted to …one that I cannot smell… because believe me I’ve tried….   

Ah well … I am thankful that I saw them and relieved him of them… this is a good thing.  

This morning has started out missing my beloved husband… but thankful for the love we shared in this life and continue to share even though he has crossed over… and thankful for the day…

May your day be filled with blessings… and your soul and mind with peace… 

Mary E. Robbins

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