A Peaceful Heart

Good morning Peeps…
Beautiful fresh snow on the ground… totally calm … as in no wind… not very cold… in the 30’s in my front yard… Pominators & Mastiffs have already been run out… Mastiffs are still out for a bit…

Breakfast is cooked and done… home fries (potatoes) 2 sausage links, 2 eggs, and ½ grapefruit… oh yeah and coffeeeeeee…. Of course coffee…

The talk is playing on tv… gotta love the internet… popped over to CBS.com and clicked on the talk and there she goes… yay… those girls do make me laugh…

Fell asleep right after dinner last night… sitting in the recliner couch… woke up and staggered off to bed…

Actually feel pretty rested this morning… thankfully no obnoxious calls last night… giving thanks for that… yay!

Got the estimates for the work needing to be done on my truck… ugh… but it is what it is…

Washed dishes this morning… been trying to train them to wash themselves… but failing miserably… lol…

Feel much better today… this past week has been a bit of a nightmare (understatement of the week)… swinging back and forth from anxiety, depression, massive panic attacks… to outright rage… when this crap happens… there is no getting around it except to go through it…

I refuse to give into fear… I refuse to give the abusive person that attacked me power over my life… I am thankful that this person’s true face was shown now rather than later.

Deal with your issues and take responsibility for your words and actions… rather than attacking others and blaming them for the mess you made yourself. No one is perfect… at least not in this life… all of us are a work in progress… learning and growing as we go along… it is up to us whether we stagnate and turn into something toxic or move forward bit by bit… sometimes one step forward several steps back… but still growing… as difficult… painful as it may be… we all have… what’s that word… oh yeah… the c word… choice…

May you walk in peace…

Busy full day today…

Would love to stay… but gotta go…

Gratitudes:
Warm bed
Laughs at the Talk
A peaceful heart

Mary E. Robbins
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My body weight is UNDER 300 LBS!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!

My body weight is UNDER 300 LBS!!!!!!! WHOO HOO!

As an added bonus I have lost just over 5% of my total body weight. 313.8 – (313.8x5%) = 298.11 lbs

313.8 – 298.6 = 15.2 lbs no longer being carried around… YaY!

I remember the last time I weighed this much. My weight was climbing uncontrollably at the time. I was angry, sad, suicidal and so very very lost. I remember sitting here thinking that if my weight went over 300 lbs I was just done. Finished. I was going to end it.

I don’t remember the date, I suppose I could find it if I dug back through my journals over the years. I would have to go several years back to find it. I think I’ll leave it just where it is, in the past.

I am in such a different place now. I still live in the same house. I am still married to the same man. I still love to read and garden. But it is as if I am a different person. In a way I suppose I am.

I am a much happier, healthier, healing person; in mind body and spirit. Facing and dealing with the issues that I had allowed to torture me over the years.

Weight gain, bulimia, anexoria, all compulsive self-destructive behaviors… find the triggers behind the behaviors and you are well on your way to setting yourself free.

Pills, surgeries, gimmicks, and/or fads are not going to set you free. It’s up to you to do the work. Coaches, Doctors, friends, books, and so on are wonderful and useful. However it is still up to you. They can help you develop skills, but it is up to you do do the work. It is up to you to change your perspective from fix it for me, from blaming circumstances, or other people, to how do I do this for myself. My life, my responsibility… my choice, my freedom.

Your life, your responsibility…. Your choice, your freedom.

The attitudes you keep and the words you speak define your life.

 

Measurements:

Date:	Measurements inches  May 19th 2012	Measurements: inches  June 23rd , 2012	Change inches
Butt/hips	59	58	-1
Waist:	44.75	43.5	-1.25
Under Bust:	42	40.75	-1.25
Above  Bust:	41.75	41	-.75
Bust (wearing pink leisure  bra~yes it does make a difference) :	52	50	-2
Belly 2 inches below navel:	60	57.75	-2.25
Right thigh:	33.5	32	-1.5
Left thigh:	34.5	32	-2.5
Right calf:	21.5	21.25	-.25
Left Calf:	21.5	20.5	-1
Right upper arm:	16.5	15.75	-.75
Left Upper arm:	16	15.75	-.25
Right forearm:	12.5	12.5	-0
Left forearm:	12	12	-0
Neck:	16.25	15.75	-.5
Total change inches:			-15.25

Yes You Can!

Life is a journey, one moment, one step, one day, one workout at a time!

Mary E. Robbins
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